If I had to choose between the misery or you, I'd choose you. If I had to choose between my addictions and you, I'd deffinately choose you. And after everything I've put you through the least I can do is make that decision. And as I've said I deffinately choose you and I always will, you are mine and I am yours, I love you for you <3 and I promised I'd never let you go. Well it's time to put that promise into action, not just words. Darling I'm sorry for everything I've put you through and I want you to know it'll NEVER happen again, because I'm holding on to you and not the pain.
"It's never enough to say I'm sorry"-Theory Of A Deadman
Though the song isn't what I feel, that line is. I won't lie, I feel like ripping a knife across my wrist, even driving one through my neck. Why? Let's see... I'm never good enough. For anyone. I know people say I am. But it's to get me to shut up and stop putting the truth in front of them. You don't like it? Look away. Another reason, I'm not worth anything. My life's being lived out as a waste. All I'm doing with it is using it for others. I'm living to keep people alive. I never did care what happens to me. No matter what I feel like, I won't do it. Well, at least not cutting. I'd
Sometimes, I fall
Sometimes, I fail
Sometimes, I'm strong
Others, I'm frail
Sometimes, I hate myself
Sometimes, I carry through
Sometimes, I cry tears of hell
Others, My eyes are just blue
Sometimes, I lose the fight
Sometimes, I lay down in defeat
Sometimes, I lose my sight
Others, I just bleed
Sometimes, I care
Sometimes, I hate
Sometimes, I get scared
Others, I break
But no matter what
I promise that every time
I'll never give up
Because it's my life
With my friends at my back
And my darling by my side
I can fight a war
And win every time
Coffee and Converse by Decembers-skyline, literature
Literature
Coffee and Converse
You walk in the room
Your footsteps get louder
I hear your heart move
As my mug fills with water
It's a place I've seen you
Somewhere we know
Where safety is true
And affection's a glow
We never talked much
But recently that's changed
We always knew what
In our hearts had stayed
That first day we saw each other
That day in our lives
Now we're changed forever
Now we've seen our light
With you at my table
Our favorite drinks in hand
We discuss what we're able
And let our minds take it in
We're in love and we know it
We like how love burns
It's enough we can feel it
Emanating from our words
If I had to choose between the misery or you, I'd choose you. If I had to choose between my addictions and you, I'd deffinately choose you. And after everything I've put you through the least I can do is make that decision. And as I've said I deffinately choose you and I always will, you are mine and I am yours, I love you for you <3 and I promised I'd never let you go. Well it's time to put that promise into action, not just words. Darling I'm sorry for everything I've put you through and I want you to know it'll NEVER happen again, because I'm holding on to you and not the pain.
Sometimes, I fall
Sometimes, I fail
Sometimes, I'm strong
Others, I'm frail
Sometimes, I hate myself
Sometimes, I carry through
Sometimes, I cry tears of hell
Others, My eyes are just blue
Sometimes, I lose the fight
Sometimes, I lay down in defeat
Sometimes, I lose my sight
Others, I just bleed
Sometimes, I care
Sometimes, I hate
Sometimes, I get scared
Others, I break
But no matter what
I promise that every time
I'll never give up
Because it's my life
With my friends at my back
And my darling by my side
I can fight a war
And win every time
Coffee and Converse by Decembers-skyline, literature
Literature
Coffee and Converse
You walk in the room
Your footsteps get louder
I hear your heart move
As my mug fills with water
It's a place I've seen you
Somewhere we know
Where safety is true
And affection's a glow
We never talked much
But recently that's changed
We always knew what
In our hearts had stayed
That first day we saw each other
That day in our lives
Now we're changed forever
Now we've seen our light
With you at my table
Our favorite drinks in hand
We discuss what we're able
And let our minds take it in
We're in love and we know it
We like how love burns
It's enough we can feel it
Emanating from our words
I am someone who's had a lot of places in life I wish I didn't have to go through. But I wouldn't change a single moment. I write a ton and occasionally draw.
So far all is going well ^_^ spending a ton of time with my girlfriend and other friends, very happy, nothing making me overly angry, a couple of rude remarks, but I'll live. Cooked a really yummy pie yesterday as well as sheppards pie(not pie nessecarily for those who don't know) and it was all very very good. Anyway, I got things to do. Later!
You all seem to think I'll come crawling back to you in the end, that I can't live without you and that you're so important to me. Let's clear the air real quick. I don't need anyone. And as it stands I want no one. I will not be there tomorrow where you think to find me, I will not stay, I will not come back. Not with what happens time and time again. In the end, we're all worthless pawns playing for a power hungry king, no not Jesus, our own mind. Everything is a worthless attempt at living for something that doesn't exist, our purpose. Whatever deluded world you live in, allow me to shatter the glass. You live in a world that hungers for y
I'm sorry I keep fucking things up on your end, I'm sorry I keep making things go badly, I'm sorry for everything. I'll just go away and not be a problem anymore, I'm really really sorry...